The Fly Shadow

Stop asking if the self is illusory or real.Stop asking what means that the self is an illusion whileseems to be real to us .By doing so, you are trying to understand the nature of a shadow missing the light that creates it! To understand its nature and discover the trick that hides behind it, after having seen the shadow and played with it, you have to go back to the source: the light. Too often they forced you to meditate on the shadow as if only watching it you could understand where it comes from and what produces it, but it is not always so.Someone arrives to the light intuitively, just observing the shadow, because somehow the mechanism that produces it is already known. Actually this mechanism is already known by all of us, but being born and growing we have forgotten it. For someone the memory is fresh, often unconsciously, so just looking at the shadow, the entire mechanism is brought back to their memories. For many others, forgetfulness is stronger and persistent so they do not need just look and watch the shadow. At the opposite, once recognized the shadow, once recognized the "ego", then, you have to go back to the source. What many people try to do, meditating, is to destroy the shadow, they expect it vanishes or expect the shadow itself will become more governable. But that does mean you do not entirely understand the illusory nature of shadow itself and also of "who" is observing the shadow expecting something "convenient", "better."On the contrary let the shadow be the shadow, ignore its movements, its tricks and even its presence. It is like trying to stop the shadow of a branch swaying in the wind, acting directly on the shadow projected on the wall! Leave her alone, turn around and look what that is producing. Meditating on "neti-neti" (not this, nor that), you're still talking from the shadow point of view! So you meditate: I'm not the thoughts, I'm not the emotions, I am not the body, not the mind etc. This is certainly true, if you are the illusion! The shadow is certainly not the branch, nor the sun, nor the wall etc. But affirming what you are not, keeping watching the shadows on the wall, nothing will remain. In Buddhism that "emptiness" is called shunyata. It's certainly a good progress understanding yourself as emptiness. Meditading in this way you spoil the shadow of the power to trick you. But what we really are, is everything. Brahman is everything. So stop to meditate on neti-neti and begin to meditate on its opposite: I'm this both that. The true nature of Brahman has no limit so you are the shadow, the wall and the tree, also the wind, the light etc. The shadow is an illusion as projection of the branch on the wall because the light, but it is certainly real in being shadow. Brahman is that illusion also! Brahman is also the mechanism that creates the illusion and also the one who perceives it. The ego is not an illusion in the sense that it does not exist but in the sense that it is the projection of something else. We are both the projection and that "something else." you do not make the mistake of rejecting the ego. You have to initially ignore it, so as not to be deceived, distracted by the ego and be able to turn to look at the sun and the branch. But once you've seen the light and the projection mechanism, what bother will gives you the shadow? You no longer need to control nor manipulate it to make it be in the way that suits you best, or rather, to pleases more the society to which you belong. So take the point of view of the Brahman and stop to say what you are not, because "it's all an illusion". Do start to affirm what you are! And you are also that "ego" from which you want to run away and that you would see dead in an unforgettable mystical experience. If you want to see him dead, try to understand, he is a harassment. How can an illusion bother you? How can bother you the shadow of a fly? It bothers you because you keep saying "I'm neither this nor that", but this capricious shadow continues to fly in front of your eyes and walkin on your nose. And you insist to want to annihilate it saying emphatically that you are not that shadow, but you only look at it and the more you look to see which is illusory the more your field of vision narrows on it and this not allows you to look over, this does not allow you to see the light that produce the shadow. I'm that naughty shadow upon which I have not at all control. Yes, you have to admit it. Brahman has no control of everything, Brahman is everything! It has no need to have control of things! I'm this and I'm also that, but both this and that are illusions, I'm the illusion itself, the one who sees the illusion and the one who produces it! I am the mind, the thoughts, the emotions, the body. All these things are illusory and I have not to control them to find Brahman, to descover I'm Brahman itself. I have to go further, and I have to give them the right value and I have to turn the search towards the infinite light of Brahman, leaving the shadows playing on the wall, according to their nature. It takes a lot of courage to admit and recognize our own faults. But it takes even more to forgive yourself. But you have to forgive yourself, not because there is someone up there who judges us "but he is infinitely good and he will have compassion on us". You have to forgive yourself from the knowledge of what this god is, of what we are. Judging yourself you are judging god who created you. Judging yourself you are judging Brahman. Stop to judge you and start to understand you, to understand your true nature, to understand the nature of Brahman. When you have understood it you will find that you can not understand! When you realize that you can not understand you will find that you are already that nature and you do not need to understand it!Stop judging the shadow of the fly on the wall! Turn around and the wonder of what you'll see will surprises you